The Lovesong of J. Dean Potter

Request for Good Vibes

2005-05-24T12:43:00.000-04:00

Denise went into surgery this morning in Colorado.Sending my thoughts for her speedy recovery and peace of mind.If you would, stop and take a moment today to do the same.

Well, it's what we've got...

2005-05-21T15:04:00.000-04:00

Here's my paper. I got an A. Woot."As voters the poor have a voice in Democratic countries, but poverty persists in these societies. How does democracy succeed and fail at providing a voice to the poor? Please evaluate in the light of what you have read in this course."Well, I'll tell you:Democracy, supposedly the ideal system for the existence of equality, fails the poor. The paradox in

Fuck.

2005-05-18T18:49:00.000-04:00

I just realized I'm high-maintenence. Crapissimo! Well, being aware is the only way to actively solve a problem...bah.In other news, what I need, what I want, and what I ask for are three completely different things. I think making them more uniform would benefit not only my own well being, but would take much the stress out of my relationships. Being able to ask for what I need is good, not

Oh, thank god.

2005-05-05T16:11:00.000-04:00

I am:-7%Republican."You're a damn Commie! Where's Tailgunner Joe when we need him?"Are You A Republican? After Jill came out +13%, I was worried.

Drag

2005-04-24T10:05:00.000-04:00

So I did all-out drag last night for the first time. Holy shit, that was fun. I think the reason the finalists were who they were was because their characters were very defined. Mine was more subtle - didn't shine well on the catwalk either.Anyway, so I think I want to develop him more. All I know right now is that he's suave and chivalrous, might be Latino or Indian (or both...that would be hot)

School

2005-04-23T16:46:00.000-04:00

So here's an timeline for all of you following along at home:Nov. 2004: I'm not an engineer. What am I? Still law school, but civil rights instead of environment.Jan. 2005: Oh, I'm a sociology major. Subconcentration in Law, Criminology, and Deviance, so that I can go to law school and be a civil rights lawyer. Ooh, and a math minor!Feb. - Mar. 2005: But wait, I'm not ever going to practice law.

In a particularly pathetic mood: random, disconnected ramblings

2005-04-21T21:49:00.000-04:00

So we had our end-of-year Stonewall party this evening. It was loads of fun. The pictures are all crappy (well, the lighting is nice, but everyone's faces are odd...and someone's breasts are rather prominent in one), but that happens. I'm going to miss them so ridiculously much. More on that later.I emailed Amit my second draft last night (I may post the paper here later; it's rather long), the

Things I miss

2005-04-07T21:41:00.000-04:00

in no particular order...1. My family (shut up)2. Drumming3. Being good at playing m'trombone4. My graduating friends (shut up)5. Paul Robert Say

On Personal Health

2005-04-06T14:54:00.000-04:00

Pathetic moment of the year: doing my breast self-exam this morning, I thought I felt a lump. It was a little painful; I grew slightly concerned.Until I realized it was my rib.In other news, Dr. Kurze says I need some sort of exciting test. I'm going to schedule the lab appointment now.

Youth Attitudes Toward Public Health (Son, Who Told You You Could Spit?)

2005-04-01T19:29:00.000-05:00

I've noticed a rather disturbing trend among college-age American males: public spitting. On sidewalks, on streets, in grass-- public areas. Here I examine aspects of sanitation, demographics, and gender roles in regard to the issue.1. EwThis is just plain gross, people. You are bringing up stuff that your body doesn't want inside and expelling it where people (and small children and animals)

Racial Invisibility

2005-03-28T19:30:00.000-05:00

So I'm Indian. Proud of it, mofo.I am so pissed right now.It's been painfully evident recently how exoticized and trivialized my culture is in this country. Yesterday on the fucking L-Word, in some random-assed circus fantasy of Jenny's, there was yet another seminude woman with six arms. Hey, American Media-- SHUT THE FUCK UP! Quit it! Just stop! You don't have the right to co-opt my heritage

Yay!

2005-03-26T14:38:00.000-05:00

It's Holi!Does anyone have any gulal? I'll have to take mittai to Commission tomorrow. Hmm. Wish I knew how to get a hold of some.

On Loss

2005-03-26T11:32:00.000-05:00

So I've been having some separation anxiety recently. Y'see, graduation is coming up, and many of my close friends will be leaving. Plus Meema's leaving over the summer, and Mommy within the next year.I'm not feeling abandoned--that's selfish-- but I'm a little panicky about losing such an incredible group of people to distance.I feel like I've kind of come into my own over the last few months,

Missing: My Period

2005-03-24T21:31:00.000-05:00

For immediate release:(Maiuterus, Jayaville) - When the city council of Jayaville issued a symbolic statement abolishing menstruation, no one expected Flo Freely, who has not returned to work since her sabbatical, to adhere to the ordinance. "She had been visiting a lot recently. Maybe she just got burned out," said a city spokeswoman. "She always comes back, though, I'm not too worried. Still,

Another "I'm a jackass" post

2005-03-22T22:25:00.000-05:00

I need to make a better effort to separate my professional life from my personal life. Hiding some of the personal bits has recently proved more difficult, though (not those "personal bits", dink).Arg.

The Commercialized Alternative

2005-03-21T00:10:00.000-05:00

So I watched "The L-Word" tonight. I thought I'd give it another chance, and fun people were going to be there (and fun people invited me, for that matter). Maybe it wouldn't be as bad as I remembered? Maybe I was just grumpy when I watched it?No.Just, no.Here's some bs response paper I wrote about it a month ago (note that it's crappy because I don't care about that class): The cable

Osculation

2005-03-12T18:41:00.000-05:00

Contented Sigh. Every time I think about it, I smile. Psychosomatic response...yay.

Blathering Emotion

2005-02-28T23:29:00.000-05:00

It comes to this:I want to love her, I want her to love me, I want to commit myself to her, I want to marry her and bear her children. And raise them with her. And we could get a kitten. While I'm at it, I want the energy crisis to be solved by a breakthrough in science that allows rainbows and smiles to power our generators. I want all of our soldiers to come home safely, with a politically

Debate

2005-02-26T17:43:00.000-05:00

I think I'm at a point in my life at which I don't feel the need to argue philosophy. With anyone.I have my opinions about queers, god, and the rest of the gamut, and I don't think it's necessary or productive to argue with someone about them. I don't believe in god, you're an idiot. It's that simple.Why waste my time with political debates when I can be on the front lines making a difference in

My Genitals

2005-02-15T21:55:00.000-05:00

If you are one of my parents, you may want to skip this entry. Also if you're creepy.So I was assigned to make a 3-D model of external genitals for my Sexuality seminar. Using "modeling magic" from Crayola and construction paper from my RA, I constructed quite a reasonable facsimile of a vulva. It's really pretty decent.Now, I didn't model it after myself directly, but since I've never seen

Leadership

2005-01-12T17:59:00.000-05:00

James Forman died. He's the man who, when he was barely 20 years of age, said, "If you can't reach the table, don't look for a stool. Cut the fucking legs off!" Keep on keepin' on.

On Homoeroticism in Literature

2004-12-29T14:01:00.000-05:00

Going through my old stuff, I came upon a short story I wrote some time ago. I'm pretty sure it predates anything else I may have claimed as my "root". Enjoy. I've left it as written for posterity's sake (spelling mistakes, etc.). "Dinosaur", by Jaya Kalra, circa 1992 Once upon a dinosaur, there lived a tyrannosaurs rex. He was bending over and bittin off the horns on a triceratops. Then

Fuck you and your little baby Jesus, too

2004-12-15T14:52:00.000-05:00

I am through. I am done. I will no longer support moderate Christians insofar as their religious beliefs go. Jesus was a fire-and-brimstone, vengeful, self-important manic-depressive psychopath who thought he was the son of God. It wasn't "turn the other cheek because I'm a bigger person than that", it was "do it because that lousy bastard is going to Hell". Christian fundamentalists aren't

NPR Again

2004-12-15T14:29:00.000-05:00

Listening to "Talk of the Nation" today, the guests were talking about LiveStrong and similar bracelets and how they affect social groups on their campuses, and they sounded really dumb. I was like, "What are you, twelve or something?" They were. So this brings up two points: 1. Twelve-year-olds are dumb. 2. What is the point of putting them on a nationally broadcasted news program? I mean, if

Clever Title

2004-12-11T20:01:00.000-05:00

Songs with "home" in their titles are usually good. Simon & Garfunkel's "Homeward Bound", Paul Simon's "Home" (from You're The One), some random song on Prairie Home Companion just now. I think "home" is one of very few words that almost always carries a positive, nostalgic connotation. Even if you don't like your family (or they don't like you), home is still something to look forward to. It's

Another Reason Notre Dame Sucks

2004-12-09T15:00:00.000-05:00

Oh yeah, Chandra Johnson? Way to stick up for your morals. I'm sure shaving your head really makes the board of regents want to re-hire the football coach. My friend shaved her head (today, in fact) because her brother has lymphoma and has lost his hair from the chemo. Those are morals, mofo. In other news, look at this. Practically from scratch. Well, really, entirely from scratch, I just

What the Fuck?

2004-12-05T09:25:00.000-05:00

Nicole Kidman receives the United Nations' "Citizen of the World" Award, along with Hans Blix and Lakhdar Brahimi (link above). There is something very, very wrong with the world. And she didn't even go to the ceremony. I mean, she's not even American. You'd think she'd have some respect. Maybe she's lived here too long. Snarkywood had a good one about her a few months ago.

Photographic Restoration

2004-12-04T13:45:00.000-05:00

It could have been innocent curiosity combined with a desire to not do homework, right? I'm pretty sure that's it. I'm really not that creepy, am I?

On Reality

2004-12-03T09:20:00.000-05:00

Contrary to what I learned while unconscious last night, 1. Terrence McGinn did not die in Iraq. 2. RoundWonder has not confronted me. 3. My water jug is empty. I may still have gotten another C on my physics exam.

On Service

2004-11-25T13:15:00.000-05:00

YAY! Hope is not lost for my getting on an ASB project! Huzzah for waitlists!! In other news, Gore Vidal is still alive. Who knew?

On Physiology

2004-11-21T15:16:00.000-05:00

In this time of gray areas and shifting positions, I like to know that a few things are concretely black or white. For example, it's usually safe to say that I am either menstruating or I'm not. One of the two. Usually. You'd think. Alas, even this sacred bit of uniformity is gone from my life. Stupid progesterone. On News What the headline says: "Lawmakers say intelligence bill not dead"

Maybe God Really Does Hate Fags

2004-11-19T16:04:00.000-05:00

'Cause it's rained on multiple days when queer groups were supposed to be out on the diag. Screw it, though, we still went. Also, this girl is dumb. I fucking love NPR. On TOTN Science Friday: "I don't mean to say that all religious people are ignoramuses. All creationists are ignoramuses." On PRI's "The World" last night: "So why was Les Miserables selected as the entertainment of choice for

On Thing

2004-11-10T22:49:00.000-05:00

Just a note: //header (if you == myRoommate) {shut up;} return 0;

On Life-changing Revelations, Wicked-Mad

2004-11-07T18:06:00.000-05:00

Yesterday, while waiting for the bus, I realized something very important about myself. However, since I'm in a mood of nondescript sorts, I am going to explain the significant behavior in pseudo C++. /************************ (c) Jaya Kalra 2004 ************************/ #include <> using namespace std; int obsess (int girl) { while (girl != asshole) { int thought = thought + girl; } return

On the Revolution, What You Can Do for

2004-11-05T23:23:00.000-05:00

Here're some ideas brought up at the Stonewall Dems debriefing last night (to be discussed further at Monday's meeting): 1. Send a case of "Have you stood up for your daughter today?" bumper stickers to Dick Cheney. (Expand to: harass the crap out of anti-queer officials on local, state, and federal levels with letters, clever stickers, other non-destructive materials). 2. Massive queer

On Life in General

2004-11-05T23:12:00.000-05:00

You know what would be crazy? In a drastically anti-everyone measure, Florida governor Jeb Bush (wtf kind of name is "Jeb"?) refuses to allow Yasser Arafat's life-support machine to be turned off, thereby destabilizing the Middle-East peace process immeasurably. The international criminal court in the Hague tries to intervene, but Jeb's idiot brother doesn't recognize the court, so he invades the

On Progress

2004-11-03T16:46:00.000-05:00

November 2 changed me. It was the most important day of my life, and I had so much invested in the outcome. And I lost it all. But even though I've spent much of the last day in tears, I have accepted the situation and have come to the following conclusions: 1. Now, more than ever before, my country needs to hear my voice rising in opposition. 2. Now, more than ever before, is it so important

On Irony

2004-10-29T18:42:00.000-04:00

Do you want to know the sad part about that article (link above)? It's completely true. The College Republicans chalked "Vote Kerry on Nov. 3" around the diag. Fuckers.

On Fanaticism

2004-10-29T13:19:00.000-04:00

Picture it: lines around the block, standing-room only filled, people being turned away, people climbing in through the windows! What was it, you ask? Madonna? Barney? El presidente? Free food? Nope. It was Noam Chomsky. That's right, my school is super-nerdy. I mean, it wasn't even like that for Michael Moore or Margaret Cho, and I'll bet you it's not like that for Jake Gyllenhal (sp?) who's

On Disappointment, Huge Freaking

2004-10-28T17:57:00.000-04:00

So my hs scholastic bowl team sucks. Yeah, I said it. They got third at the Optimist's thing. Third of three. Against Newman and Rock Falls. Get your act together, hosers! I don't even know how long it's been since we got less than first at that guy. On Administration Heehee. I replied to Mary Sue Coleman's mass email reminder to vote and asked her to take a stand on prop 2. Hee. It'd be funny

On Elections, Freaking Out About

2004-10-21T19:54:00.000-04:00

Here're my predicitions, complete with electoral count and fake odds. Put your money on 'em. And remember, you read it here first. Oh, and I'm not saying Bush gets the rest, I'm just saying they wouldn't be financially sound investments. Kerry wins in: California 55 40/1 <-- actually has a smaller margin than IL. and has Arnold. Connecticut 7 15/1 <-- 4% Nader. Holy shit! Delaware 3 7/1 DC 3 13

Newsflash

2004-10-20T16:26:00.000-04:00

Some things that have happened since my lazy ass last posted (no, not since the sound effects one, before that): 1. Physics Exam. Boo. 2. Calc exam. Yay! 3. C++ exam. Hoo-wah! 4. Fall break in Chambana. Woo! 5. Two nights in the Chicago bus station (nonconsecutive). Boo. 6. Football team goes 6-1, 4-0 Big Ten. Woo! 7. Martha Stewart begins serving. 8. Huffy goes bankrupt. 9. ABC drops Miss

On Secrets, Deep Dark

2004-10-20T16:09:00.000-04:00

Here it is: I like making sound effects in my head for things that go on around me. And sometimes, if they're particularly exciting things, out loud. Exercise: Match the numbered descriptions (1-5) with the appropriate self-generated sound (A-E) 1. Walking down the sidewalk, a crazy cyclist shoots past me. 2. It's autumn, right? So I always walk through the leaves. 3. Dr. Bielajew is erasing

Random

2004-10-02T21:10:00.000-04:00

1. I wonder if traditional Indian parents go into conniptions or just weep silent tears of joy when they find out that a lot of people do engineering undergrad and then go to medical school. 2. Heard on "The Next Big Thing" today (I think that's what show it was. It might have been whatever's right before that, except no, because "This American Life" comes right before"): "I prefer to work with

On Miscellaneity

2004-09-26T22:41:00.000-04:00

It's time for a game of "who said it" as usual...or for the first time.* Today's first quote comes from an email I received this evening on my yahoo account (hint). 1."I'm glad you turned out like you did (as opposed to turning out like a sock or some such)." The second quote comes from an email I received several days ago on my school account (worse hint). 2. "I think I am foolishly in love

On Excess (addendum)

2004-09-23T14:36:00.000-04:00

Hey Dr. Oprah, remember those cars you gave away? Well, everyone in your audience has to pay $7000 in taxes apiece. Whoops, guess you forgot about that part. Way to be a half-assed philanthropist.

On Knowledge, Acquisition of

2004-09-22T16:58:00.000-04:00

Abstract ideas cannot be clarified by asking questions. In order to ask the right question, you have to have a clear understanding of what you are asking about, paradoxically. Otherwise, you'll ask the question wrong and the askee* won't understand what you're asking, and will say a bunch of stuff that you think would probably make sense if you understood the thing you're asking about. Abstract

On Transportation

2004-09-16T22:25:00.000-04:00

I rode Mrs. Bursley-Baits twice today and once yesterday. I also rode Mr. Northwood yesterday. You see, when I was an impressionable youth, my sister, (nono, this one) learned to drive. Her habitual naming of inanimate objects became apparent in driving mode (e.g. "Ohmygod, please don't hit me Mr. Truck!") and I must have picked it up. So I've started referring to most things as people, "guys",

On Excess

2004-09-14T00:05:00.000-04:00

What the Hell is going on with this? Oprah gives away 276 brand new automobiles. I'm not sure how I feel about that. On the one hand, what a humanitarian thing to do for the people who needed the cars (see story) , but on the other hand, at roughly $30000 a pop, that's roughly $8.28 million. That's a shitload of money. People in the world need that money for food or water or clothing or heat (all

2004-09-12T20:37:00.000-04:00

Quote of the Day: "Don't be so sad, Mr. Jesus." (Explanation) Quote of the rest of my life: " Being the best looking team in quizbowl is like being the guy in the leper colony who still has all his limbs." (Explanation) Oh, and if you right-click on any picture place-holder and pull up the properties window, you can still get the URL where the picture is, and then copy & paste into your address

Outrage!

2004-09-11T20:26:00.000-04:00

Damn you, fotopic.net! The whole reason I signed up for your crummy site was so I could link to my pictures! Damn you! Jerk. Now I have to go through the exhaustive process of finding another hosting site. That could take up to six minutes! Grr anyway. On the upside, this is funny. Oh, I forgot the Celine Dion thing. The answer is two: JD from downstairs @ Harvard last year was Celine Dion's

On Religion, Disgrace of

2004-09-11T19:51:00.000-04:00

Touchdown Jesus. Hi-larious, if you ask me (which you bloody well did, coming here and all; if you're going to read my blog, you're going to shut up and take it*). For those of you who are unaware of this miracle of location, allow me to explain. For those of you already proficient in the understanding of the phenomenon that is TD JC (as I like to call him), kindly remove your hand from my ass.

Snarkywood

2004-09-08T17:21:00.000-04:00

Oh, what joy this page has recently brought me. And so it shall be for you, if thou followest mine link. Quick: how many degrees of separation are there between Celine Dion and me? The exciting answer...I dunno, the next time I post, if I remember.

2004-09-08T14:46:00.000-04:00

On Tragedy The Genesis space flyer guy crashed. I'm so sad right now. Five years of research, just *poof*. Well, I guess not quite "poof". More like "WhoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohnoSPRUNK*". I can't talk about it anymore right now. Go read about it here if you want. *I wonder if I can get that word put into a dictionary. Aside from writing it on a post-it and physically sticking it into one

2004-08-30T21:43:00.000-04:00

On Appearance So I revamplified the template here. It's kind of mellow, I think. Though white type is harder for me to read; I don't know if other people have that problem. White on green isn't as bad as white on black, though. Unfortunate accident, though: in changing the template, all of your beautiful (read: Rosa's great) comments got eaten. I guess we'll just have to (sigh) pick up the

2004-08-29T16:51:00.000-04:00

On Closure (or lack thereof) So I haven't heard from what's-her-face since I called her on her birthday, and I think it's pretty safe to say she's gone back to school by now (classes start tomorrow). And that kind of pisses me off. No, I'm not quite angry, more disappointed. I just think it's crappy of her to leave me hanging. I made it clear (at least I think I did) that it was up to her if she

2004-08-25T21:12:00.000-04:00

On Trends So I guess my new "thing" is being self-conscious/insecure to the point of idiocy. Here is a cross-section (ut dicere) of what I might be thinking at any given moment: What if no one likes me? What if I really am the only gay person in the world? What if my roommate is a homophobe? What if I don't get along with anyone in WISE because I'm not girly enough? What if everyone thinks I'm

2004-08-12T14:29:00.000-04:00

On Death Y'know, I bet it's really a bitch for religious zealots, in the very moment that they linger between life and death, when they realize that no angel on a white steed is coming to escort them. I bet it's really a pain in the ass. On Finances Yay! I'm eligible for some Illinois Student Assistance Commission Merit Scholarship 'cause I'm in the top 4% of students in my graduating class in

2004-08-11T21:03:00.000-04:00

On Identity Theft (Volume I) Somehow, TCF got the wrong address from us, so they sent my checks to 1610 e. 6th street, from where (thank Bob) a nice man called to tell us, so I rode m'bike over and got them. The checks have the right address, just not a) my account info form and b) the box they mailed them in. So I called and righted this injustice...or did I? No, really, I did, I just thought

2004-08-08T18:58:00.000-04:00

On Science Dissolution Effects on Three-inch Un-galvanized Steel Nails by Coca-Cola Purpose: to determine the amount of time necessary for a three-inch nail to be corroded/dissolved completely by the contents of one can of Coca-Cola*. Variables: mass/concentration (if determinable) of solvent, mass of nail, material of container, temperature of surroundings Control: nail in de-ionized water

2004-08-07T19:32:00.000-04:00

On Germanity Mooo. I miss Surya. 'Course, it doesn't help that this: is my desktop. Erg, she doesn't come home until the twenty second. Moooooooo.

2004-08-06T19:42:00.000-04:00

On Joy Lies is out in paperback!! Yay! I bought two copies (one for Tushar, one for me) for 4.75! Well, I had a $25 gift certificate from Amanda for my birthday. But still! yay! I've been feeling much better in the last two days. Drank around three litres o' water yesterday. And...I got my bike fixed! Rode to the post office with Tushar, and we passed (you'll never guess) a new bike repair

2004-08-04T17:44:00.000-04:00

On Job Satisfaction You know who makes me happy? That dancing supply guy in the Office Max commercials. He loves his job and helps people and he knows what they need before they realize it. A new ad I saw today targets the back-to-school audience, and he's giving kids notebooks and stuff, and one kid who's sleeping in the middle of the day gets an alarm clock. See, he's nice and all, but he

2004-08-03T16:32:00.000-04:00

On Nomenclature Mmkay, so far I've got Divya Rick Ila Sharifa Adele Albert Bikebert Consuelo (Spanish-speakers: why doesn't it mean "with floor"? I think it should) Heloise (pron: Hell-oyse) Heloise (pron: Hell-oo-eez) Elvis Athena (sidenote: just learned that in addition to meaning "victory", my name is also yet another form of "Durga"; cool; oh, hey, Mukul means bud or blossom...I wouldn't

2004-08-03T15:35:00.000-04:00

On Accessorizing Dude. You should see my bike now. Went to Farm & Fleet (did you know they have Fleet & Farm in Minnesota?) to see about getting my gear shifting guys fixed and to pick up a few things for my bike. Long story and horrible car accident (someone else's, not mine) later, my cycle is tripped out and smizack. Magenta bell on the handle bars, headlight, tail light flashy guy, U-lock

2004-08-02T16:21:00.000-04:00

On Stress AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! I have so much crap to clean up in my room and then pack it all up and ship it to Michigan andandandand, um, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Ok, what did I learn in psych? 1. Stress is mostly in your head; if you feel in control, you don't feel stressed. 2. Going to college produces a lot of stress as a result of all of the unknown factors

2004-07-26T19:05:00.000-04:00

NPR Made Me Gay Realized this a few days ago, but I haven't had a chance to blog it. With all of this ridiculous reaffirmation of my queerdom since what's-her-face whatevered, it has come to my attention that my sexual orientation is not, indeed, the result of a combination of biological and environmental factors. In fact, the source of this filthy habit of mine is National Public Radio. You

2004-07-23T23:15:00.000-04:00

On Academic Exploits So, uh, we got 3rd at PAC. Missed 2nd by one point. woot! I get a championship ring and $500 scholarship. Smizack*. *Word I made up. It most nearly means "Spifftastic!" but can also mean ornate/opulent, as in the hotel in the Mariott in Delhi. Shipping out to Mich for enginerding camp Sunday! Wee! Gonna get me some... some, uh, accurate calculations and, uh, blisters

2004-07-22T14:20:00.000-04:00

On Diplomatic Failure Alas, Wonderfruit and I are calling it quits. The following is a clever fake dialogue devised from excerpts of e-mails that led up to the disappointing climax of our relationship that [un]fairly makes her look bad. Oh, and things that I didn't actually say, but really felt/feel like saying. A disclaimer: I'm still really pissed, so my responses (in red) are really pretty

2004-05-25T21:35:00.000-04:00

On work So I work at the office at school now. 'S fun as hell! I get to do the phones an' everything!! Sterling High School...one moment, please It's awesome. Volunteering, of course. Robbing the district of its precious funds? Not this kid. **** On Absence So, um, yeah, haven't posted it a long time. Tough titties. **** On Guilty Pleasures Alison Bechdel says she prefers her guilt

2004-04-13T17:27:00.000-04:00

Success! *Wonderfruit* (see Nov. & February) was Ashley! When I went back and re-read the initial code post, I had smushed two sentences together. Wonderfruit and her brother in one, Lethargia and Calculus in the other. Herzog.

2004-04-13T16:56:00.000-04:00

On career Which one is right: the one you have a passion for, or the one(s) you've always thought about? For me, this is between environmental engineering and stand-up comedy/being president. Now that I'm graduating high school (still a baby), I may actually have to think about this. Fifteen years from now, will I look up from what I'm doing and say, "What the Hell? This sucks."? Or, more

2004-04-12T23:13:00.000-04:00

On Mental Health (or lack thereof) It comes to my attention that I may have a mild mental disorder. Observe the following situations: Dialogue 1: "Is she? Oh, I thought she was seventeen." "I thought so, too." Dialogue 2: "Well, I'm not sure. I'll have to think about it." "The choice is up to you." "I know." Look normal? And now the crucial bit of information: Both of these excerpts are

2004-04-12T22:40:00.000-04:00

On Attraction It's all about what you can tell about her personality from her external features (not just looks-- mannerisms). Poise, presence of mind, grace, and, maybe above all, class. Classiness is probably the result of a combination of the other three plus intelligence. But it's harder to tell how smart she is without knowing her at all. I mean, with chimps it's a little bit easier. Which

2004-04-11T15:01:00.000-04:00

On latent homosexuality in childhood (my own) (Reasons it should have been obvious that I was queer) 1. Liking certain women a little too much: a. Mary Martin in Peter Pan:"I want to be a boy forever!" Eh? Eh? Is that all? b. Justin Bertrand's mom: Damn, she's pretty. And classy. Didn't know quite why I was giddy when she was around c. Elizabeth Montgomery: Oh, Samantha, Samantha

2004-04-10T16:50:00.000-04:00

Bits of Jane Goodall (Hmm. That's entirely wrong, as if she's strewn about the highway. Let's try again, shall we?) Reflections while reading In the Shadow of Man: (Wond'ful.) 1. OMG. Parts of this are so intentionally erotic it's silly. But mostly just sexual. a. Her first rainy season in Gombe, Dr. Goodall (though she didn't have her Ph.D then) gave up walking through the wet bush (

2004-04-06T20:41:00.000-04:00

Whew! What a ride! So I saw Jane Goodall today. And she was fabulous, just as I expected. And I bought one of her books and she signed it. With m'name. "For Jaya" it says, "Follow your dream" an' then she signed it. She has a viral eye infection, so she was wearing sunglasses and I noted to m'self that it added a social activist (as opposed to scientific activist, thereby heightening the "

2004-03-31T22:31:00.000-05:00

You know who's annoying? Well, I'll tell you. 1. Regan (who's imbalanced, so I guess I should give her some leeway...but still) 2. Josh Alber (¡¡Grow up!!) 3. ME (I talk too much and am too moodswingy) ____________________ I wonder if Paul waltzes. I want to dance at prom. 'Course, I'll have to figure out a relatively pop song that's in 3/4. "I Got You (Babe)" is. So is "Hotel Paper". Hmmm. I

2004-03-29T20:04:00.000-05:00

Owww. I have shin splints. And m'period. And allergies. And m'shoes are worn thin. An' I'm still a terrible distance runner. An' I know I'm running flat, but I dunno how to fix it. I need to ask about that. But the weather's been absolutely gorgeous. And m'kid was bein' good today. We played outside. Yay. I'm pooped, if you've not noticed yet. Mr. Hartz gave us the new distance people lifting

2004-03-27T22:31:00.000-05:00

Yay! I'm going to prom with Paul! Herzog! An' I get to wear a pretty sari, too. I dropped 5 seconds on my 800 time at Thursday's meet (haha...to 3:26...merf) and I got to jump for the first time! Yay! I guess I did well for a first time, but I dunno. I was just happy that I didn't scratch any of the jumps and I made it into the pit all four times. Woo! I didn't even actually pay attention when

2004-03-14T19:13:00.000-05:00

Letters I should write, and what the responses would be: ***************** Dear ovaries, What the fuck? I'm always nice to you, aren't I? Why don't you like me? All I ask is that you keep my gd hormones on some kind of cycle that's longer than freaking 30 seconds. Also, if you could kick up the progesterone so I'm not depressed all the time, I'd really appreciate it. For old times' sake? Love

2004-03-04T19:29:00.000-05:00

Hmm. 1. Not bisexual, just depressed. Trying to latch onto things, I guess. Whatever I could find. Also, I've not been going to technodyke or anything and I kind of forgot queer people existed. I started noticing myself becoming homophobic-- not in the "god hates fags" kind of way, but the not accepting biology as a reason and understanding how heteros can think of us (omg...it's been so long

2004-02-20T22:16:00.000-05:00

Oy, so much as happened since I last posted. I got into Michigan (yay!!). I made Team Illinois after a wracking triple tie-breaker with oh! oooops i'm not supposed to say whom it was. I had another sexual identity crisis, and wrote some stuff down re bisexuality. maybe I'll post some of it. It's about ol' what's-his-face again. I'd decided that, jah, I liked him, but then now I'm not so sure. It

2003-12-05T20:15:00.000-05:00

Yay! I gave blood today! And I felt fine! Now my stomach is a little angry, but Eno fixes everything. And water. Eno and water, both united and separately. Well, not so much the Eno on its own.

2003-12-03T22:26:00.000-05:00

Ryan, the new guy in muni band, is a wonderful edition to the trombone section. He's 28 and a little balding, so he looks older. We made fun of Paul's still being the oldest person in the section. Heehee. Anywho, Ryan is married to the new bassoon lady (um...Mrs. Ryan's last name that I just forgot) who's really good and has a fat tone. I like fat tones. Fat, not swelly. Ryan likes TNG and

2003-11-30T23:35:00.000-05:00

Aha! Code words shall henceforth be denoted with asterisks before and after the word/phrase. Y'see, I don't need them to indicate emphasis, since I have handy-dandy italics. Examples: I have a crush on *WonderFruit*, whose brother's name is *Bahamas*. *Lethargia*, who is in my first period class, is so incredibly sexy. Ach! It works! If you were a true sleuth, you'd figure some stuff out from

2003-11-30T23:29:00.000-05:00

Elf was really good. And that Zooey Pontoliano (or whatever her last name is) was prettttty. hmmm. Why is IMDB being so slow? Zooey Deschanel, that's her name. She looks like what would happen if Chloe Sevigny (where's that damn umlaut?) and Reese Witherspoon had a child. It appears that she's made a bunch of indie films in the last year. Oh, and The New Guy. Interesting. Oh, and Almost Famous,

2003-11-30T23:02:00.000-05:00

Elephant jokes!! Yay! Best one: Why do elephants wear yellow-soled shoes? So they're indetectable when floating upside down in a giant bowl of custard. (follow up) Have you ever seen an elephant in your custard? Then It must be working. Best series: (punchline) Look! A herd of plums! (Jane was color blind) To learn what the hell I'm talking about: http://www.csmngt.com/elephant.htm and

2003-11-29T23:20:00.000-05:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH! Stupid postal service. Stupidstupidstupid. Michigan sent me a letter telling me they don't have my transcript or recommendations. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh. aaaaaaaaaaargh. want. go. michigan.

2003-11-27T18:23:00.000-05:00

Thanksgiving is such a pain in the ass. Food was good, though. Hey, I bet if I borrow Priya's new corduroy pants I might fit into them. Well, better than the brown ones, anyway. Mr. Black is still a moron. Yesterday or something I was on Bela Masi's porch, and the vineyard hills are across the street, and the cows, they were just walking around. With no one there. Free range cattle. I think

2003-11-23T20:39:00.000-05:00

Whelp, I submitted my Berkeley application. They didn't need a transcript. That's really weird. I suppose I should go start the homework I haven't done all weekend. Nishu's in town! Yay!

2003-11-22T19:07:00.000-05:00

Languages I want to learn: Spanish, Portuguese, French, Urdu, Hindi. I doubt I'll ever get to. Okay, you know what's driving me crazy (among other things)? I can't remember what song these 4 lines are from, the words, or the rest of the song. And at this very instant, I can't even recall which ones I'm referring to. This wouldn't bother me if I also forgot about trying to remember, but as it is

2003-11-22T18:45:00.000-05:00

First Post. Initial. Inaugural. Hmm. Inaugural. Unable to be like sheep blood? Haha. I think that quite wonderfully sets the tone for this blog. What a spectacular invention this is. It allows me all the freedom of expressing myself on message boards, only I can ignore other people and my alternate personalities can also say things without my being harassed for changing opinions. Oh, and my